I daydream a lot about what our use of DD will look like once we aren’t spread so thin. Nothing makes having babies simple, but in a few months things will be changing for us for the better, workload wise, so I’m hanging in there!
We’re currently in a bit of a mini-marathon in regards to maintenance, so I have been sitting gingerly all week, something that isn’t as common for us lately. I’d like to brag about how my husband is so authoritative and attentive that he’s been taking me over his knee every single night, complete with a firm but loving lecture and mind blowing sex. As I mentioned in my opener, maybe added time and energy will allow for that. But in our lives right now a mini-marathon realistically looks like this:
Wednesday: Bruce asserts that the next several nights will be not so fun for me, and that some continued maintenance is needed. I received a serious hand spanking and a few really hard pinches.
Thursday: Bruce woke me from a deep sleep on the couch (he was working at home late and I don’t like to go to bed without him), took me downstairs and gave me a very painful spanking with the looped cane but this ended with really nice intimacy :)
Friday: We both fell asleep on the couch after sharing some wine. When we woke even Bruce was too exhausted to take me over his knee, so we just went downstairs and went to bed.
Saturday: Very uncomfortable paddle spanking followed by really nice intimacy.
Tonight: Bruce has mentioned that he’s not done with me yet, but it’s getting late and he is knee-deep in some serious paperwork, so I imagine I will fall asleep on the couch and he will wake me later and put me to bed, no spanking or intimacy involved.
Why am I sharing this? I just want to remind everyone including myself that the head of the house having perfect consistency, while mutually fulfilling and effective, is not always realistic; the important point is how much of a priority we make each other outside of the time and energy constraints that we cannot control. He’s ridiculously swamped in his career right now, but this was unavoidable and as I mentioned it is temporary. Our babies are so lovely and just so very exhausting, and sometimes there is precious little energy left at the end of the day. In fact depending on what simple household task needs done, there is often a very limited amount of time left too. But proportionally speaking Bruce devotes a significant amount of time and energy to physically connecting with me, and showing me his love via his time, attention, and authority.
I am so appreciative of this, and I want to look inward and be sure that I proportionally offer the same to him. I’ve been making a lot of effort to keep up my physical appearance in the evenings and weekends, and I’m trying harder to care for the kids without seeking help when he’s preoccupied, but I could do a lot better in a lot of areas... more back or foot rubs, ironing his shirts more consistently, responding to his requests more promptly, speaking more softly and respectfully... It won’t become perfectly consistent, I truly have virtually no time between completing tasks and sleeping each night, but I can get better and I want to do that for him.
And have I mentioned that Bruce always reads my posts a day or so after I post them? Well he does, so the pressure is indeed on. Bruce I love you so much, and I am so thankful for what you do for me and our relationship. Over the next few days and weeks I intend to display my love and my submission more effectively to you, even if only a little.
I have no doubt that he will be frank with me as to whether or not I have achieved this goal, so I’ll let you all know how it’s working out in my next post. If any other submissives are up for further showing their love and submission in some additional way the next few days and weeks please feel free to share via comment below or email. The more the merrier, right? I can do this, and so can you! Have a blessed week everyone :)